jerryhazard

Here we go again... Not saying I'm coming back regularly, but I think I'd like to. FB and IG have really taken over my gaze, as well as my drive to share, or at least where to share. I'd like something different, something where I don't feel like I'm just trading stories while waiting in line with everyone I know (and many whom I don't) for life to end. Almost 20 years ago I came across this site with... a passion? A need to create and show... show that I'm here I suppose. I wouldn't say my life was "hard", but I found myself in many situations that required some emotional processing, soul searching, reflection, and well some catharsis I guess. And what great place Deviantart was for that. Now I'm processing emotions a little less, or at least with less intensity, the gaze of my reflection has changed (but has it, really?) and I think we are always doing some soul searching. But now it's less tragic, lol. Less "important" to the next moment. And yet, it's still important

Or whatever it is that has me building a 20" bike and relearning to ride it all over again. I was asked by a friend to document my return to the BMX world, and I'm trying find a medium to use to record it. Word or InDesign seems overkill, and notepad is too... Mr. Robot or something. Since DA sent me an email today, I thought maybe I'd try here. So, I'm 52, soon to be 53. I've been a "deviant" forever and a day, since before FB showed up, but I've been inactive longer than active by now. What can I say? Life has been worse, despite the current plague and pre-election garbage. Like many, I express most passionately when things are, well, fucked up. And that has not been the case, mostly, for the last decade. Not even when I hit 50, was rolling with the punches. But this year, something caught up with, or just caught me. Passion for things I loved doing for so long was just dormant. Not apathy or disinterest. Just lack of interest. So I sat, and for the first time in

So... seems facebook has taken over the world since I sorta left a few years back.  Crazy.  Never cared much for myspace, friendster and all that, and I really only joined fb under duress from peers.  As much I don't like it.. actually, I think it's okay for the most part - I can see what everyone I know is up to at a glance, and even see what other people are to too. Problem is, not everyone I know are the creative type.  Not there's anything wrong with that, but if you're on DA then you know where I'm comin from. That, and well, life has been.... good for the last few years.  Great, actually.  And other than riding, creatively I seem to (